Today I was thinking to myself "I wish Krissy was here right now." And I wasn't doing anything special...just watching my boys play in the hose on the driveway. And wishing for togetherness with my friend. So - I did the next best thing and called her instead.
This happens to me a lot. I go about my days and weeks and meet up with friends when it works out (less than I'd like), but in myself I find a longing. It's not loneliness (usually). It's simply a longing to share my life with my friends. And sometimes it's just the fatigue of being alone.
This morning my 'Wednesday sitter' Amanda got sick and cancelled. It's certainly best for everyone that she rest and get well. But it suddenly changed my day. And the thing that salvaged my morning was getting to meet my friend Susan at storytime with our kids. Now there was no significant conversation between us while we chased our kids around the Blue Manatee, but somehow it's just better being together.
Even on vacation I found myself in the peace of the dude-ranch longing to share this off-beat place with our friends and their kids: wanting them with us.
I just looked up "together" in the Bible and focused on the NT...and found some interesting things even just researching where that word pops up. Things happen spiritually when we are simply "together." The bible says we are encouraged, we are bound in love, we are held together in unity, we grasp the love of Jesus more, we become holy, we understand the Lord's Word and we have more joy.
In short, it seems that being together is our natural state and being apart is the strange, unnatural place to be.
I'm not feeling discouraged or lonely -- I just think the Lord wants me to notice how much I long to be together with others. And He's in my ears saying "yep - that's how it's supposed to be."
Pursuing Dreams
6 months ago
3 comments:
You know when we are the phone, I was longing to be in your driveway! I delight in spending time with you guys. When Andrew sprayed you with the hose I was thinking, "I wish Andrew were spraying me with the hose." This absolutely resonates with how I was feeling at the same moment. Unity over the phone may not be the same, but it may be the next best thing. Together is the way it's supposed to be.
I completely understood your heart in this post- and truth be told, it put words to some of my feelings that have been unexpressed. The "not right" feeling of being the only mom in over 10 miles and not having any other 'young families' to do life with right now. That's why connecting even via online is so vital for me!!
God gave me a three-word command years ago that I reconsider often: Be With People. This is basic and True (as in, Jesus is present in this).
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